Walking

I have always said that getting these two saved my sanity.

But I didn't really realise the science behind it, when we are walking without any distractions ie: music, looking at our phones we are naturally calming our nervous system because it releases endorphins and other neurotransmitters that improve mood, and reduces stress hormones. It tells our body that we are safe, otherwise we would be running, that can't be a bad thing right.

It releases the feel good hormones even when we are not aware of it, sometimes I would go out with my wine in my coffee cup and sit and cry in the field (at the beginning when losing my Mum was raw and I was desperately trying to support my trans daughter at the same time) but I would go out every day, I would get up and go, one foot in front of the other and walk, twice a day if they were lucky. This definitely helped me process, now I do it without wine lol

The blood gets pumped round the body enabling the body and mind to sync, it helps with stress, anxiety and can improve your sleep, which all means that if you have mental health issues getting out for a walk every day, is the one thing that doesn't cost you anything and you can do it as much or as little as you like you just have to commit to yourself just a little bit, and believe you are worth that little bit of time every day, even if you dont do anything else, go for a stroll for a week and see if it helps

Another day another challenge

Don't get me wrong not every day is a challenge.

But this morning was, you see I have this awful eczema on the sole of my foot, it has been there a while and is currently raging.

I am about to have a short session with Mr Richard Flook who works with epigenetics so I am going to finish that after that xx

Mr Flook confirmed what I thought, and I went and got some more vit e cream which seems to do the trick.

I started this last week and forgot to come back to it and have now no idea what I was going to talk about, so shutting up.

Ruminations on a dog walk

Wellllll, this healing stuff is definitely a weird and wonderful thing.

It's not so easy writing stuff without a background, but if you have read about me you'll know it was a bit rubbish for a few years..until I started somehow miraculously doing stuff that would make me feel better.

So this time last year I noticed that for the first time ever there was hardly any alcohol on the alcohol shelf, that was a first for sure, I think last year I probably drank only a quarter of what I had drank the previous year. I have also been a toker for many years, that too has gone out of the window.

But my point here is that neither of those things were hard work or conscious things, how awesome is that, majorly cutting down or cutting out without even trying. What I had been doing was putting work in on myself, I had started meditating, going to practical philosophy, yoga and doing daily (or trying) mindfulness.

The latest is smoking, I still had some tobacco left so on Jan 1st I thought right I'll finish when this is finished!! next day there was still some left so I threw it away ( I had convinced myself that as I heal the smoking will also miraculously will go by the wayside-I say convinced but ya know) so the first couple of days it really was easy, did some breathing when I had a vague want, and it really was vague.

But yesterday I thought what happens if I have a drink, can I enjoy a drink without having a cigarette, game on lol

The amount of conversations I had with myself yesterday (someone had given me a pack of cigs ages ago, I am/was a rolly smoker) I knew deep down that I am changing who I am, I have smoked for some 45 years so it has been part of me for a looooooonnngggg time (and the resistance was real it was a conscious thing)

I really struggled not thinking about how easy it was, and it really was I really didn't feel the need for a ciggie, but I knew that eventually I was going to have one, because that is me that is what I do, I smoke-well I did- I couldn't just surrender to being a non smoker, I knew I was going to fight it, and indeed I did have a ciggie.

But I am not beating myself up because while walking this morning I felt so aligned (head and heart) that I know that in the not too distant future I will be that non smoker, other good things are coming into my life, going to start climbing again, have met new people and will continue to meet people who will enrich my life.

2025 is going to be so awesome I cannot wait for all that good stuff- I hope that if you are reading this that you have the best of years and realise that you too can do the work and be a better happier more grounded and accepting you, because we are all wonderful and most of us have some kind of work to do to realise that , can't put a heart cos I don't know how to lol lots of love for the coming year.

Take 2 or is it 3, day 4 :-)

Every day is indeed a school day.

Considering I have had a core belief since ..probably before I hit high school, that I am stupid and not at all academic I am quite proud of all the tec stuff I am getting my head round.

Don't get me wrong I have had help, and the fact that I have been putting the work into myself has enabled me to move forward on that issue, I am not nor ever have been stupid, unfortunately a lot of us have negative core beliefs that do not serve us, but we kind of sleep walk through it and carry on.

With awareness come opportunity, give yourself a little mindfulness (that just means sitting quietly with your own thoughts for a time, this can be driving without the radio on, walking without sounds in your ears) each day and when you identify that negative belief you can work on it.

Funnily enough tapping enables you to do that :-) and the joy is you can take the tool home with you and work on it yourself after you have had a practitioner session-so whats stopping you xxx